Contracts and self-doubt

So much learning will happen over the next few months. For me and for the park. Now that we are talking official business and the paperwork that will compose our agreement, there are so many things to learn.

First thing to navigate: business insurance. I have never had my own policy before! I know this might seem strange, but as a artist just now navigating the small business world, it’s never been required of me before. Some projects fly under the radar and this aspect never comes up. Fortunately for me, I have had an old fashioned relationship with my insurance agent for some time now and thanks to Patrick, I understand a whole lot more in regards to business insurance. New policy, check. Coverage for me onsite and a million dollars in liability, check! That should do nicely.

As for contract, like I said, we’re all learning. First draft looks pretty good. Now back to boards for final review and then we can sign. There was a minute there while impatiently waiting where my brain said, maybe they have changed their mind. They don’t want you, after all. I know that this was just an evil trick of my subconscious, but as an insecure artist, these evil thoughts still infiltrate.

I’ve always loved this quote from Robert Hughes: “ The greater the artist, the greater the doubt. Perfect confidence is granted to the less talented as a consolation prize.” I think all artists need to hear that one! So, to all my artist friends striving every day to feel like you have earned the business and reputation that you have worked so hard on. Take heart. Deep down we all have the evil elf on the shoulder whispering negative thoughts in our ears. You’re not a fraud! You’ve earned this!